Today is a bad bad Monday. I’m sorry if the only blog posts I write nowadays are rantings but when the feelings get penned up and Twitter’s not long enough to explain, I have to blog. To let it all out.

First up, I received a letter asking me to join a wildlife study next month for three freaking weeks! and they are referring me as an adept ornithologist. I mean say what??? Yeah sure I’ve OBSERVED people doing that (bird survey) for like what? a couple of days? I’ve never done it personally and despite my thesis being on hornbills, I worked with dried/dead specimens. I NEVER had to capture them! and they freaking want me to LEAD the team!

I mean seriously la… what crap is that? As if I’m not busy enough here! They have their own wildlife unit you know. We are pretty much a separate entity from them. Ugh!

Am gonna talk to my boss and see what we can do. But my boss is this freaking pushover that says okay to others too easily. Damn!

Next up, one of my veteran staff in her fifties came to see me this morning to apologize for not being here for the past days. It is her husband’s one year death anniversary tomorrow and since he was previously here too, I understand her pain and sorrow. BUT, she broke down and starting tearing up in front of me! I was like O.o and she just excused herself and went off! I went looking for her but she was gone! Good grief!

Yeah well I did send her an sms and she said she’s okay, etc but that was still scary.

End of my problems? HARDLY.

You know I have been writing weekly articles for my old company BP since I left at the end of March. My ex-boss promised me about RM150 to RM200 per article and after three months, the only payment I received was RM400.

So I emailed her directly this morning. What did she say?

“We have started paying you at RM100 per article starting April 2010. The payment differs from other contributors because the articles are translated. I apologize for the miscommunication on the payment subject.”

I mean seriously, what the shit is that? Does verbal agreement mean nothing any more???

What the eff am I supposed to? I am contemplating quitting that for good. What’s the point of working for a company that can’t keep its promises?

Is RM100 even worth the trouble? Bloody ripoffs.

What should I do? Everything happened within one morning and I’m still trying to digest the info.

Guess this is karma for relaxing too much last week eh?

It is almost 3pm now and I can only think of going home to sleep after work. What’s the chances that I’ll wake up to find out that all these are just part of my nightmare?

I need some energy boosters now. Also, my savings are at an all-time low but I’m expecting my salary to come in some time this week. The BP issue ticks me off really bad and I am glad I didn’t stay behind.

But this doesn’t mean I am in a better place. Out of the frying pan into the fire? But ironically, I will be quite unwilling to let go of the benefits and especially the annual leaves. But other than that, I don’t think there’s anything I would miss too much.

Would love any better job opportunities. Suggestions people?